shifted.

http://yuy-i.livejournal.com/

salt and vinegar chips.
white wine.
drunk.
vomit.
equals.
disgusting
i swear
im swearing off chips from now on
esp salt and vinegar.
thats it for me.

feeling super miserable now.

town.
dinner.
chalet.
leads to sleeping at 6am and waking up at 8am.
leads to almost being knock down by cars twice.
leads to being vvv hungry.

its now that ive got a phobia of checking my emails
and
answering phone calls.

something happened recently
it made me realise
how fragile life is
although
i always think
i wanna be the one who's lying on the bed.
in coma
or better
dead
wouldnt it be better.
today
ive seen how it is in real life
not on television
but in front of me.
people crying
concerned and worried over their loved one
someone lying there
helpless as to what to do.
i wish.
i was the one there.
cus
i cant feel anything.
perhaps
i could use smth to wake me up.

if i die today
will you cry for me?

sometimes
people just live in denial
mayb they know it or they dont
but.
you dont have to justify yourself.

anyway
handover today was a blast!
weeks of preparation ended in less than an hour
tiring and draining
but.
it was satisfying.
thanks people.
i love SA!

oh ya.
one more thing.
i hate accounts.

Reverent Ming Yi from Ren Ci has been charged with fraud.
FRAUD. REVERENT.
how is that possible?
a monk.
who preaches that one must not greed.
first NKF
then Ren ci
whats next?

anyway.
SSM ytd at sugarloaf went quite well i suppose.
but poor Ena had quite a lot to bear.
i miss toptable.
subway-ed with shi hui and kah yuen after that.
and i was sooooooo tired.
i came home.
i showered.
and i fell asleep.

with the rising cost of living in Singapore.
how are we going to survive in future?
we are told to use more of public transport.
less of cars.
but.
train and bus fares are increasing rapidly.
one after another.
cab fares too.
buses often come irregularly.
making us wait so long
causing it to be packed all the time.
trains are always so crowded
with kiasu singaporeans trying to squeeze in even before passengers have alighted.
cab fares are extortion.
ERP too!


owells.
this is random

reflection part two.

see. its 3am.and im reflecting again.
i feel that.
ive been working too much.
neglecting my studies.
ALOT
in the beginning when i knew that i had to work 6 days a week
i thought it was easy.
but now i realise.
no. its not.
plus with cca now.
its definitely not.
i need time
for myself.
for my studies.
for my family.
for my friends.
for 4 days.
ive been clearing the shit up for others.
i need some kinda break.
damn.

i miss o9!

been thinking alot lately.
esp when talking to C and YT.
its like.
i wonder.
why am i putting myself through this.
is this the life i want to lead?
why am i going through ssm and stupid acct?
getting humiliated by mr ___ time and time again?

why do i always face crossroads.
forcing me to make decisions one after another.
follow your heart.
i always say.
somehow
its so difficult now.
i need a break.
what do i really want?

BOO.

you know something.
money is evil.
it really is evil.
it is the root of all evil.
please dont let money ruin your lives.
k? (:

im growing older day by day.
i feel so old now.

HELLO PEOPLE!
ive decided to delete those emo posts.
and move on! =D

so anyway.
its the hols now.
im enjoying myself.
and im sorry bimbs we couldnt make it today!
i swear we'll go out on nxt wed alright! =)

lets be happy people people!

humans are selfish people
full stop.

today.
i went haji lane to shop with ena
finally!
then at night.
i went to outback steakhouse with ryoma.
and i tell you.
i seriously thought he forgot when's my birthday.
after we ordered.
he went to the toilet.
after our meal.
the people in the restaurant brought this cake out.
and started singing happy birthday.
i was like so stunned.
he actually rmb. too bad he has to book in tmr.
tell me.
is that sweet or sweet?

i know its been a super long time since i blogged!
life's been a blur for me.
sch work sch work sch work sch.
time flies.

things i want to say. but dont have time to.
1) im glad im in the same class with cherina chia!
2) im getting pretty mixed feelings about my job now
3) the weather's freaking hot nowadays
4) ssm starting operation soon
bla bla bla bla bla
lastly.
im glad i met you.

im losing myself.
doing things against my conscience.
knowing that what goes around comes around.
yet.
i cant stop.
cant stop.
troubled by this day and night.
perplexed
confused.
knowing the obvious fact and truth.
yet i cant pull back.
stop
i wish i could say
stop doing this to me.
what have i become.
it hurts.
not the first time this happened.
more than once.
im always the unlucky one.

just realised i havent said anything for so long!
the hols are going to be over REAL SOON
days have been flying by.
evrydays blur
i cant catch up.
long long days.
work work work.
shop shop shop.
starbucks starbucks starbucks.

you're losing ur mind.
u think you're cool.
u think you're brave and strong.
u think you can control evrything.
u think u're more experienced and mature now.
you dont know that you're so wrong

in less than 2 weeks.
my social circle has suddenly widened.
i suddenly know people who are working adults.
more than 5-6 years older than me?
ive learnt so much.
so much it kinda scares me sometimes.

lesson number 1:
men are always looking at girls. =/

lesson 2:
guys who are popular and well known and always in the lime light can sweet talk real well.
mr A and mr B have words so honeyed that u'll get diabetes.
it takes away the meaning of words that you yearn to hear.

lesson 3:
adults really know alot.
once u step in the working world.
its a very different place out there.

for the past week
i got out of my little own heaven and faced the facts.

after 2 wild days of waking up in the wee hours of the morning to work at a380's function
i finally will be able to get a good night of sleep.
it was great workin with the SA people and the SATS people.
the SATS people were SO FRIENDLY.
like. u dont feel that they're old
somehow
they just feel like our age.
and i got into the transit area of t2 and t3.
pity i didnt walk around inside.
damn.

im sooooooooooooo tired.
i forgot wad i wanna say.
so.
goodnight people.

im surprised at how easily my heart sways.

i just realised.
more and more girls are getting pregnant lately.
i was reading someone's blog.
and i guess she's pregnant too.
somehow. her bf left her after he knew.
ha.
guys.
its scary.
how life can be brought into this world so easily.
its scary
how life can end that easily as well.

owells.
i got home at 11+ last night.
and i went to the airport at 03++ this morning
it was sheer madness.
the sleep wasnt considered sleep at all.
kept woking up. checking the time.
adjusting my position.
tossing and turning
at last. i showered and went to the airport.
i didnt know what i had to do.
in the end all we had to do was to clear the plates.
seems easy.
but it was hell.
in presentation wear.
with heels.
today's the first inaugaral flight for a380 from singapore to london
wooohooo~!
i treated myself to starbucks on my way home.
and slept. all the way to 7pm.